My mum used to call me almost once in two days back when I'm in the 1st and 2nd semester. Every time I will answer the call with a faster-hang-up-the-phone tone. I'm sure she realize it and yet she thought I behaved like that because I'm busying with my assignments or studies.
Actually I'm not, that time I just don't feel like talking. Some people can talk to their parents on phone all day long, but I can't. Sometimes when I'm down or upset, I will not tell them as I don't want them to worry. They have too many things to be handled with.
In this 3rd semester, mum has changed a bit, she will only call me around once a week? Actually I felt myself have more things to talk to her in that way. Besides, instead of her asking me about my undertakings, at times I will make the 1st move by calling my mum and dad.
Some people might feel this is no big deal but for me this is a little change.
I knew sometimes I hurt them back when I'm at home or how I answered my parents' call.
I'm sorry for what I've done.
One can't turn back a time but he should make sure no same mistake is made in the other time.
xxx
This Monday after staying in the class without lecturer for two hours, I get myself ready and took a 6pm bus to Kl. I think I can considered myself as Jenn's half-roomate already by running to her place at least once a month? Ha.
The next day we meet up with Mizen and Spyng in midvalley.
Mama's kitchen-Aunty Annes-Pasta Zanmai-Snowflake
On the way to Kl on Monday, listening to Elton John's songs all the way, I try to sleep but can't.
Looking the scenery outside, I saw my friends and families faces.
They play an important role in making I am who I am today and affects how I think in a lot of ways.
I don't mind if I less pretty or no richer than others as I always have them.
Then, tears filled my eyes.
There are certain times I cried before,
When young, I cried when I fell,
when I've been canned,
being left out,
being dissapointed.
But this is the first time I have tears because I'm contented.
Ya, things may turn different in the future, but for now, this is how I felt.
I don't know why suddenly I'm so emotional, and the fact that the setting is in a bus doesn't seem right. The passenger who saw may probably thought I have a hard time after breaking up with my boyfriend.
Nah, maybe I cried because am touched by Elton's songs.
Whichever the reason is, I reached Kl safely after that.
Jenn texted me what I prefer for dinner, Cheese and Chalk or KFC?
KFC? Oh please, like I haven't seen enough in Tanjung Malim.
We ended up eating cheese baked rice together with Jessica. :)
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Monday, November 28, 2011
po po
Today I tried to trace back my earliest childhood memory and your face automatically appeared in my mind. There are many memories that I probably have forgotten when I'm young but the time that spend with you are those that couldn't be forgotten though I'm as young as three or four years old.
I still remember the taste of your soy sauce chicken.
Everyday 7pm there will be Hong Kong drama showing on local tv channels.
Instead of going to kitchen to call you to watch the drama, I shouted (from living room),"Popo, it is 7pm already!" and slowly you will walk to living room and watch tv together with me.
Instead of sitting on the sofa, I will rather sit on your lap, ignoring my aunt who scolded me," Popo so old already, don't sit on her lap!"
I still remembered you helped me to apply medical oil on my skin after my mum canned me for some reasons that I can't remember.
Once, I woke up 4am in the morning and wanted to follow you and granpa go to Pokok Assam morning market to sell 'Ban Chang Kuih'@'Ban Jian Kuih'. When my mum found out that I crawled out from my bed, immediately she stopped me from following you both but you insisted to bring me along after I cried out loud. ha..
On some days, you will walked me to the Pokok Assam Pasar Malam. Once, there was really strong wind that blew away the umbrella that you holding on one hand but you never loose up the hand that you holding on me.
On one random day, my mum told me you are sick, that you have a nose cancer. I don't understand how serious it can be. I just wanted to visit you in hospital. But dad and mum said those nurses won't let me go in the ward and visit you as I'm too young. I don't understand why does it matters? Anyhow, mum insisted that I should stay outside with her, standing by the window and waving to you. By that time, I don't know that that was the wave of goodbye. It was year 1995.
Do I understand what is the meaning of death when I'm four? I'm not sure. Sometimes I do and at times I don't. The only thing I confirmed was you wouldn't be coming back anymore.
During the funeral, I don't remember what was I feeling, but I can remember mother was crying so badly and calling you again and again. I can also remember kneeling down in front of the coffin along with my sister and cousins.
When I turned to 5 the next year, looking my mum preparing some fruits and kuih for 'you'. I asked my mum why don't she prepared 'mamee' for you as I'm sure you will like what I like as well. :)
It has been 16 years already. Sometimes I wonder what if today you are still with us? Instead of taking care of me for four years, why can't it be longer? I'm sure you are the type of grandma that I can shared everything with.
I miss you.
I still remember the taste of your soy sauce chicken.
Everyday 7pm there will be Hong Kong drama showing on local tv channels.
Instead of going to kitchen to call you to watch the drama, I shouted (from living room),"Popo, it is 7pm already!" and slowly you will walk to living room and watch tv together with me.
Instead of sitting on the sofa, I will rather sit on your lap, ignoring my aunt who scolded me," Popo so old already, don't sit on her lap!"
I still remembered you helped me to apply medical oil on my skin after my mum canned me for some reasons that I can't remember.
Once, I woke up 4am in the morning and wanted to follow you and granpa go to Pokok Assam morning market to sell 'Ban Chang Kuih'@'Ban Jian Kuih'. When my mum found out that I crawled out from my bed, immediately she stopped me from following you both but you insisted to bring me along after I cried out loud. ha..
On some days, you will walked me to the Pokok Assam Pasar Malam. Once, there was really strong wind that blew away the umbrella that you holding on one hand but you never loose up the hand that you holding on me.
On one random day, my mum told me you are sick, that you have a nose cancer. I don't understand how serious it can be. I just wanted to visit you in hospital. But dad and mum said those nurses won't let me go in the ward and visit you as I'm too young. I don't understand why does it matters? Anyhow, mum insisted that I should stay outside with her, standing by the window and waving to you. By that time, I don't know that that was the wave of goodbye. It was year 1995.
Do I understand what is the meaning of death when I'm four? I'm not sure. Sometimes I do and at times I don't. The only thing I confirmed was you wouldn't be coming back anymore.
During the funeral, I don't remember what was I feeling, but I can remember mother was crying so badly and calling you again and again. I can also remember kneeling down in front of the coffin along with my sister and cousins.
When I turned to 5 the next year, looking my mum preparing some fruits and kuih for 'you'. I asked my mum why don't she prepared 'mamee' for you as I'm sure you will like what I like as well. :)
It has been 16 years already. Sometimes I wonder what if today you are still with us? Instead of taking care of me for four years, why can't it be longer? I'm sure you are the type of grandma that I can shared everything with.
I miss you.
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Fish Bone
Standard 3, year 2000.
The night before we are going down to Sunway Lagoon with my family, I was so excited. While having my dinner, a tiny fish bone had stuck in my throat. I tell you, that is painful. Then, some uncle or aunt suggested me to take a full mouth of rice. (The theory is that the force of swallowing will push down the fish bone.)
Instead of swallowing the lump of rice, I chew it. So obviously, this method doesn't work for me. To be fair, it is simply difficult to ask a nine year girl to do that ok? hahaaa..
Anyway, at last my uncle helped me by using some tools to pick it out from my throat. I was so relieved, I thought it will stick with me forever.
Anyhow, after the incident, I told myself not to eat fish anymore. I don't want to experience that kind of pain again. It scares me. What if it went into the throat too deep and flow within my blood? Eew... (That's how I think during that time XD)
Well, I really didn't eat much fish in the few years after that. Except there were times when my uncle or aunt who insisted to pick some fish into my plate of rice during family dinner. I told them I don't want and eventually they will give me that kind of 'adult look' that will shut my mouth immediately. Then I will take up minutes to use fork and spoon to squeeze and squeeze and squeeze the fish flesh until I confirmed that there is no more fish bone inside, even a little tiny one. That's is how traumatic I got towards fish bone when I'm young.
And now? Of course the trauma has gone. Fish is always one of my favourite food.
Recalled back those past memories, there were times when I'm so sure of myself by telling,
"No, I wouldn't like this..."
"Certainly I'm not this kind of person..."
"Of course I won't do this even in the future..."
"Nah, this won't happen on me..."
But you can't so sure of something until it really happens and it goes totally the other way round.
At times, when these things or feelings change gradually, you don't even realize it.
And by the time you realized, you knew those feelings have already grown too strong.
The night before we are going down to Sunway Lagoon with my family, I was so excited. While having my dinner, a tiny fish bone had stuck in my throat. I tell you, that is painful. Then, some uncle or aunt suggested me to take a full mouth of rice. (The theory is that the force of swallowing will push down the fish bone.)
Instead of swallowing the lump of rice, I chew it. So obviously, this method doesn't work for me. To be fair, it is simply difficult to ask a nine year girl to do that ok? hahaaa..
Anyway, at last my uncle helped me by using some tools to pick it out from my throat. I was so relieved, I thought it will stick with me forever.
Anyhow, after the incident, I told myself not to eat fish anymore. I don't want to experience that kind of pain again. It scares me. What if it went into the throat too deep and flow within my blood? Eew... (That's how I think during that time XD)
Well, I really didn't eat much fish in the few years after that. Except there were times when my uncle or aunt who insisted to pick some fish into my plate of rice during family dinner. I told them I don't want and eventually they will give me that kind of 'adult look' that will shut my mouth immediately. Then I will take up minutes to use fork and spoon to squeeze and squeeze and squeeze the fish flesh until I confirmed that there is no more fish bone inside, even a little tiny one. That's is how traumatic I got towards fish bone when I'm young.
And now? Of course the trauma has gone. Fish is always one of my favourite food.
Recalled back those past memories, there were times when I'm so sure of myself by telling,
"No, I wouldn't like this..."
"Certainly I'm not this kind of person..."
"Of course I won't do this even in the future..."
"Nah, this won't happen on me..."
But you can't so sure of something until it really happens and it goes totally the other way round.
At times, when these things or feelings change gradually, you don't even realize it.
And by the time you realized, you knew those feelings have already grown too strong.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Shayne Ward
Today is Tuesday.
Woke up early but today I don't have class. I was thinking whether wana go down to KL not. Then decided not to, plan to study in library for the upcoming multivariable calculus and programming language mid-term.
Coincidentally, I met the president of the program 'Seraut Kasih' in the library. She asked me how was my survey about the gifts that will be given to the lecturers that day. I'm really sorry as I haven't do any survey yet.
Even in the another program 'JUM', I was supposed in surveying a suitable place for the activities to be held but I haven't ask a single thing. Not to mention collecting a list of things from other AJKs so to borrow stuffs from the university.
This weekly PMMU meetings is killing me bit by bit.
Programming Language. I don't hate this subject.
Now already week 9 and still can't solve those PL questions that was given by my lecturer.
Mid-term on Friday, I don't wish to leave blank on those answer sheets.
Today is Tuesday.
Opening up my multivariable calculus reference and nothing much go in. Wasting time worry this and that.
Really, I should go down to KL.
Woke up early but today I don't have class. I was thinking whether wana go down to KL not. Then decided not to, plan to study in library for the upcoming multivariable calculus and programming language mid-term.
Coincidentally, I met the president of the program 'Seraut Kasih' in the library. She asked me how was my survey about the gifts that will be given to the lecturers that day. I'm really sorry as I haven't do any survey yet.
Even in the another program 'JUM', I was supposed in surveying a suitable place for the activities to be held but I haven't ask a single thing. Not to mention collecting a list of things from other AJKs so to borrow stuffs from the university.
This weekly PMMU meetings is killing me bit by bit.
Programming Language. I don't hate this subject.
Now already week 9 and still can't solve those PL questions that was given by my lecturer.
Mid-term on Friday, I don't wish to leave blank on those answer sheets.
Today is Tuesday.
Opening up my multivariable calculus reference and nothing much go in. Wasting time worry this and that.
Really, I should go down to KL.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
listening to saxophone
Friday I went to Kl with Jenn. Doing nothing the whole day except read the books I just bought.
'Sing You Home' and 'House Rules' by Jodi Picoult.
I managed to read finished the Sing You Home. Not bad not bad.
Mitch Albom.
Jodi Picoult.
JK Rowling.
Stephenie Meyer.
etc.
Yesterday, I was supposed to attend a friend's wedding (that is also the reason I went to Kl). But I didn't turn up.
Instead, I had KFC as my lunch with Jenn and Jessica.
Dinner? Subway! my all-time favorite fastfood!
Ah.. and I bought a 'durian durian' from secret Recipe.
Went to KLCC.
Bought Elton John and Kenny G's CD. :)
'Sing You Home' and 'House Rules' by Jodi Picoult.
I managed to read finished the Sing You Home. Not bad not bad.
Mitch Albom.
Jodi Picoult.
JK Rowling.
Stephenie Meyer.
etc.
Yesterday, I was supposed to attend a friend's wedding (that is also the reason I went to Kl). But I didn't turn up.
Instead, I had KFC as my lunch with Jenn and Jessica.
Dinner? Subway! my all-time favorite fastfood!
Ah.. and I bought a 'durian durian' from secret Recipe.
Went to KLCC.
Bought Elton John and Kenny G's CD. :)
Friday, November 11, 2011
theBestEver
On Tuesday, Jenn, Khaili, Pjuan, Alex and I went to karaoke~ hahaaaa... I like how we sing "Love the Way You Lie". You wouldn't want to miss singing with us. *wink wink*
And then... the day I waited for long have finally came! Yesterday, we went all the way to Teluk Batik to watch the state's choir competition! Recalled back during secondary school, I rarely took part in school's activities or competition but choir was one of them. I really miss those practice moments.
Jenn, her mom, Khaili and I woke up at 5.30am in the morning to get all ready. Driving ninety minutes all the way pass through Pantai Remis, Pulau Pangkor and here we are at the Virgo Resort, Teluk Batik! This is the first time ever I watch the full choir competition, excited! But I don't like the place they chose to hold the competiton, too small to fit in all the participants and parents! >.< I was kind of shocked that my former primary school was in the primary category in the competition too and they did a really good job. Too bad there wasn't even a choir team exist during my primary time. Then, it is the Puteri Convent Taiping's turn! With the lighting effect, the Phantom of the Opera as an opening song, I doubt that if it didn't wow the audience at that moment. They sang Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita and Think of Me. I still can feel the goosebumps whenever I watched the video when they sang. Undeniably, some other teams were quite good too, but still incomparable to Convent Taiping (no offense to other schools). The Champinon went to ------> SMK CONVENT TAIPING! :D
The Best Conductor ------> JOCELYN (Jenn's youngest mei mei)
Thrill, thrill and more thrill.
Scream, scream and more screaming has filled the entire hall.
All their hard works have finally meant something.
I'm not one of the participants but I share no less excitement with them.
Laughing together with Khaili, I couldn't express more my feeling that time.
Even Jenn's mum was teary all the way. :')
Of course, the teacher-in-charged behind, Meichen, played an important role in this great team. Due to her talent in music and dedicated in teaching, she brought the team to the best!
Wishing Congratulation to each other, taking photos, we end the great day by singing 'Perajurit Tanah Air'. Hahahaa...
On the way back home, we stopped by and ate in a restaurant. Even a dead fly that found in my food didn't ruin my day. XP
By the way, Happy 11.11.2011!
And then... the day I waited for long have finally came! Yesterday, we went all the way to Teluk Batik to watch the state's choir competition! Recalled back during secondary school, I rarely took part in school's activities or competition but choir was one of them. I really miss those practice moments.
Jenn, her mom, Khaili and I woke up at 5.30am in the morning to get all ready. Driving ninety minutes all the way pass through Pantai Remis, Pulau Pangkor and here we are at the Virgo Resort, Teluk Batik! This is the first time ever I watch the full choir competition, excited! But I don't like the place they chose to hold the competiton, too small to fit in all the participants and parents! >.< I was kind of shocked that my former primary school was in the primary category in the competition too and they did a really good job. Too bad there wasn't even a choir team exist during my primary time. Then, it is the Puteri Convent Taiping's turn! With the lighting effect, the Phantom of the Opera as an opening song, I doubt that if it didn't wow the audience at that moment. They sang Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita and Think of Me. I still can feel the goosebumps whenever I watched the video when they sang. Undeniably, some other teams were quite good too, but still incomparable to Convent Taiping (no offense to other schools). The Champinon went to ------> SMK CONVENT TAIPING! :D
The Best Conductor ------> JOCELYN (Jenn's youngest mei mei)
Thrill, thrill and more thrill.
Scream, scream and more screaming has filled the entire hall.
All their hard works have finally meant something.
I'm not one of the participants but I share no less excitement with them.
Laughing together with Khaili, I couldn't express more my feeling that time.
Even Jenn's mum was teary all the way. :')
Of course, the teacher-in-charged behind, Meichen, played an important role in this great team. Due to her talent in music and dedicated in teaching, she brought the team to the best!
Wishing Congratulation to each other, taking photos, we end the great day by singing 'Perajurit Tanah Air'. Hahahaa...
On the way back home, we stopped by and ate in a restaurant. Even a dead fly that found in my food didn't ruin my day. XP
By the way, Happy 11.11.2011!
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Raya Haji holiday
Thanks to my friend Ira, I managed to be back on Taiping by Saturday morning!
I'm very surprised that Spyng has actually created a facebook group called 'Siao Cha Bohs' for all of us. It is not simply any facebook group but a bunch of friends that you knew them well and vice versa. :D
Jenn, Jrui and I then went to Flemington's hotel to attend Pjuan's sister, Pfang's wedding. Alex was back with Pjuan to Taiping too. He is a best friend's of Pjuan's and you wouldn't want to miss his magic tricks! Of course, Gan is also able play a few tricks that make all of us laugh so hard. XD
During the wedding lunch, a simple decoration of the restaurant or a word from the MC trigger me to start imagining my friends' wedding. First, the guests that attend will be those faces we knew too well, all the best friends, their parents, or perhaps some teachers. They will go to the bride and groom, wishing them Congratulations and hug them. I think I will cry on every touching moments. When I tell Jenn about friends' future wedding and stuffs, she just give me HER USUAL LOOK and said,"start imagine again la u.." =.=
Oh, and the singers that provided from the restaurant. Usually, I don't really enjoy listening to their singing or those songs they have picked to sing. Then Jenn said why they always have the same dance moves and can't stand properly and sing. Hahahaaa... When I recalled back those weddings or some other chinese functions I attended, I laugh.
Then, Jrui told us about her studies and living environment in UMT and she said she has been driving for eight hours from Terengganu to Taiping. Wao. After that, we talk awhile with Pjuan and Alex before going back home.
At night, going out dinner with Jenn and Jocelyn in Tops Thai. I like the mango salad~
I'm very surprised that Spyng has actually created a facebook group called 'Siao Cha Bohs' for all of us. It is not simply any facebook group but a bunch of friends that you knew them well and vice versa. :D
Jenn, Jrui and I then went to Flemington's hotel to attend Pjuan's sister, Pfang's wedding. Alex was back with Pjuan to Taiping too. He is a best friend's of Pjuan's and you wouldn't want to miss his magic tricks! Of course, Gan is also able play a few tricks that make all of us laugh so hard. XD
During the wedding lunch, a simple decoration of the restaurant or a word from the MC trigger me to start imagining my friends' wedding. First, the guests that attend will be those faces we knew too well, all the best friends, their parents, or perhaps some teachers. They will go to the bride and groom, wishing them Congratulations and hug them. I think I will cry on every touching moments. When I tell Jenn about friends' future wedding and stuffs, she just give me HER USUAL LOOK and said,"start imagine again la u.." =.=
Oh, and the singers that provided from the restaurant. Usually, I don't really enjoy listening to their singing or those songs they have picked to sing. Then Jenn said why they always have the same dance moves and can't stand properly and sing. Hahahaaa... When I recalled back those weddings or some other chinese functions I attended, I laugh.
Then, Jrui told us about her studies and living environment in UMT and she said she has been driving for eight hours from Terengganu to Taiping. Wao. After that, we talk awhile with Pjuan and Alex before going back home.
At night, going out dinner with Jenn and Jocelyn in Tops Thai. I like the mango salad~
Thursday, November 3, 2011
t.s.o.l
Yesterday, at last handed in 3P's assignment. Then, the lecturer gave a sudden mid-term test. I can't find the answers in textbook. It depends on your own extra reading.
Later at night, we have Numerical Methods' mid-term.
I have bought train ticket back to Taiping on this Saturday but I don't think I will be in time when Poh Juan's sister wedding starts. Bus tickets from Duta to Taiping have been sold out. Called up a friend or two to ask whether can car pooling with them or not. No answer given yet.
Lately, not in a mood on doing things.
Felt like some part of me is missing.
Later at night, we have Numerical Methods' mid-term.
I have bought train ticket back to Taiping on this Saturday but I don't think I will be in time when Poh Juan's sister wedding starts. Bus tickets from Duta to Taiping have been sold out. Called up a friend or two to ask whether can car pooling with them or not. No answer given yet.
Lately, not in a mood on doing things.
Felt like some part of me is missing.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
bossiness
At home,
"Nan, you should stop playing games and help mum do some work, she is asking you now.."
"Nan, you shouldn't talk back to dad like that, you can't say things properly izit.."
"Eh, you should... you shouldn't..."
Between friends,
"Stand beside a bit la...", " wait wait...", "faster la...".
That's what and how I always talk to my brother or sometimes, to my friends.
I didn't really realize it until last year my friend pointed out this to me.
Last week, when I wanted to give a 'talk' to my brother and then I came across that whenever my parents or sister ask me to help them to do something, I will give excuses.
Despite how your excuses sounds so logically convincing, they are still excuses.
Consciously or not, I always do this.
Annoying?
Yes.
How about change for a bit?
I'm trying.
"Nan, you should stop playing games and help mum do some work, she is asking you now.."
"Nan, you shouldn't talk back to dad like that, you can't say things properly izit.."
"Eh, you should... you shouldn't..."
Between friends,
"Stand beside a bit la...", " wait wait...", "faster la...".
That's what and how I always talk to my brother or sometimes, to my friends.
I didn't really realize it until last year my friend pointed out this to me.
Last week, when I wanted to give a 'talk' to my brother and then I came across that whenever my parents or sister ask me to help them to do something, I will give excuses.
Despite how your excuses sounds so logically convincing, they are still excuses.
Consciously or not, I always do this.
Annoying?
Yes.
How about change for a bit?
I'm trying.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Feeling Good? Yup.
I'm feeling fresh. Just finished bathing. *wink*
I brought back a lot of books, got an assignment due on Monday, but have to complete it by Friday. Urgh.
Frankly speaking, I'm not too much a homesick person because I'm not too far away from hometown. Always back home at least once in two months. But, IT FEELS GOOD TO BE HERE. Nothing beats meeting up with friends and family.
While having dinner with my dad and bro right after I reached Taiping. *message alerts*
Agnes- "Hey yo..wana watch Real Steel...with me gan jenn.1010pm"
LOL. A movie right now? Erm.. not really, but I wanted to meet them! So, I said ok. Teehehee... Went to Jenn's house first and Agnes showed me Jenn's sick faces photos when her skin problems got worsened for the past few days. When I first saw it, I thought it was some sort of advertisement for some skin products. Oh, there were dates labelled together with each of the photo. My god. Fortunately, her condition seems turning a bit better now.
Anyway, we don't get to watch the movie, the good seats were selling fast. But is okay, we went to Big Apples! Yeah, Taiping have Big Apples and Domino's Pizza as well!
Went to the food court, chit-chatting, laughing non-stop all the way. Though Gan and Agnes is a loving couple, but we always don't feel ourselves as 'lightbulbs' when with them. Nothing awkward.
Today when I meet up with friends, it feels like kind of long I didn't see them them while the fact is maybe it just about a month. I couldn't describe what I'm feeling when I saw them. It was something more than friends, like family. I'm not exaggerating, I can feel the warmness inside me.
Soon, more friends will be back, Serena, Khaili, Pjuan and Spyng. And a mini party for the 'secret two' will be held soon. :)
I'm not wiser than others nor am I a better person.
But, I'm a lucky girl who has wonderful people around me.
I brought back a lot of books, got an assignment due on Monday, but have to complete it by Friday. Urgh.
Frankly speaking, I'm not too much a homesick person because I'm not too far away from hometown. Always back home at least once in two months. But, IT FEELS GOOD TO BE HERE. Nothing beats meeting up with friends and family.
While having dinner with my dad and bro right after I reached Taiping. *message alerts*
Agnes- "Hey yo..wana watch Real Steel...with me gan jenn.1010pm"
LOL. A movie right now? Erm.. not really, but I wanted to meet them! So, I said ok. Teehehee... Went to Jenn's house first and Agnes showed me Jenn's sick faces photos when her skin problems got worsened for the past few days. When I first saw it, I thought it was some sort of advertisement for some skin products. Oh, there were dates labelled together with each of the photo. My god. Fortunately, her condition seems turning a bit better now.
Anyway, we don't get to watch the movie, the good seats were selling fast. But is okay, we went to Big Apples! Yeah, Taiping have Big Apples and Domino's Pizza as well!
Went to the food court, chit-chatting, laughing non-stop all the way. Though Gan and Agnes is a loving couple, but we always don't feel ourselves as 'lightbulbs' when with them. Nothing awkward.
Today when I meet up with friends, it feels like kind of long I didn't see them them while the fact is maybe it just about a month. I couldn't describe what I'm feeling when I saw them. It was something more than friends, like family. I'm not exaggerating, I can feel the warmness inside me.
Soon, more friends will be back, Serena, Khaili, Pjuan and Spyng. And a mini party for the 'secret two' will be held soon. :)
I'm not wiser than others nor am I a better person.
But, I'm a lucky girl who has wonderful people around me.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Yue Yue and Genovese
A two-year old kid, Yue Yue has been hit down by a small van. However, the driver did not stop and continue drove his van and rolled over her the second time. Seven minutes later, a truck went over her again. In the meantime, 18 witnesses passed by, nobody lend a hand. At last, an old lady passed by and helped the little girl. Later on, the first driver has been found.
He said," If I hit someone and he died, I may only have to pay ten or twenty thousands, but if he did not die, I have to afford the lifetime injury cost."
I'm sure most of you felt what I'm feeling.
In the early morning of March 1964, Kitty Genovese had driven home from her job working as a bar manager. Arriving home at about 3.15am, she parked her car 30m away from her apartment's door. As she walked towards the building, she was approached by Winston Moseley. She began to walk faster. However, Moseley who ran after her, quickly over took her and stabbed her twice in the back.
Genovese then screamed," OH MY GOD, HE STABBED ME! HELP ME!" Her cry was heard by several neighbors. One of the neighbors shouted at the attacker,"Let that girl alone!" Moseley then ran away. Genovese was seriously injured, but seeing her got up and staggering around, people believe she is in no need of help.
Moseley returned 10 minutes later. Eventually, he found Genovese lying barely conscious in a hallway. He proceeded to further attack her, stabbing her several more times. while she lay dying, he raped her, stile money from her, left her in the hallway. A few minutes after the final attack, a witness called police. Genovese was taken away by ambulance and she died while on the way to hospital.
Later investigation by police and presecutors revealed that approximately a dozen individuals nearby had heard or observed portions of the attack, though none saw or aware of the entire incident. One of the neighbors admitted and said,"I didn't want to get involved."
An experiment had been carried out by a psychologist. A man has been asked to act as he was attacked by Epilepsy. Results showed that when there are more than four people witness the incident, most of them wouldn't take further action to help the man. In contrast, when there are only one witness during the incident, about 85% will lend a hand.
The Genovese case and the experiment prompted research into diffusion of responsibility and the bystander effect. This line of research showing that contrary to common expectations, larger numbers of bystanders decrease the likelihood that someone will step forward and help a victim. The reasons include the fact that onlookers see that others are not helping either, that onlookers believe others will know better how to help, and that onlookers feel uncertain about helping while others are watching.
At certain level, both cases of Yue Yue and Genovese can be explained psychologically. These witness felt that the responsibilities of rescuing people was not theirs. However, you still can find differences between both cases. To help out Yue Yue, one doesn't need to risk his life. While to rescue Genovese, the witness may have high probability attacked by Moseley.
Sometimes, to save people in China is 'risky'. There were a lot of cases where those saviors got sued and became defendants in a court. One of the popular cases was the Peng Yu's case. On November 2006, Peng Yu saw an old lady fell down. Eventually, he went to help her up and brought her to hospital. The report came out the old lady have to undergo a surgery. Right after that, she wanted Peng Yu to afford the cost as she claimed that he is the one who pushed her down.
Later on, Peng Yu has been convicted by the judge. After knowing this, a witness who saw the whole incident where the old lady actually fell down herself said," Friends, from now on who will dare to do the righteous thing?"
Even the lady who helped Yue Yue has been described as 'someone who wanted to be famous' and she is also envied by some ridiculous people for she got money as her reward.
So tell me, where were their humanity gone?
(Some of the contents I translated from the column written by Zhi Jian Cheng（植建成 ) from 'Sin Chew Jit Poh' and some searched from wikipedia.)
He said," If I hit someone and he died, I may only have to pay ten or twenty thousands, but if he did not die, I have to afford the lifetime injury cost."
I'm sure most of you felt what I'm feeling.
In the early morning of March 1964, Kitty Genovese had driven home from her job working as a bar manager. Arriving home at about 3.15am, she parked her car 30m away from her apartment's door. As she walked towards the building, she was approached by Winston Moseley. She began to walk faster. However, Moseley who ran after her, quickly over took her and stabbed her twice in the back.
Genovese then screamed," OH MY GOD, HE STABBED ME! HELP ME!" Her cry was heard by several neighbors. One of the neighbors shouted at the attacker,"Let that girl alone!" Moseley then ran away. Genovese was seriously injured, but seeing her got up and staggering around, people believe she is in no need of help.
Moseley returned 10 minutes later. Eventually, he found Genovese lying barely conscious in a hallway. He proceeded to further attack her, stabbing her several more times. while she lay dying, he raped her, stile money from her, left her in the hallway. A few minutes after the final attack, a witness called police. Genovese was taken away by ambulance and she died while on the way to hospital.
Later investigation by police and presecutors revealed that approximately a dozen individuals nearby had heard or observed portions of the attack, though none saw or aware of the entire incident. One of the neighbors admitted and said,"I didn't want to get involved."
An experiment had been carried out by a psychologist. A man has been asked to act as he was attacked by Epilepsy. Results showed that when there are more than four people witness the incident, most of them wouldn't take further action to help the man. In contrast, when there are only one witness during the incident, about 85% will lend a hand.
The Genovese case and the experiment prompted research into diffusion of responsibility and the bystander effect. This line of research showing that contrary to common expectations, larger numbers of bystanders decrease the likelihood that someone will step forward and help a victim. The reasons include the fact that onlookers see that others are not helping either, that onlookers believe others will know better how to help, and that onlookers feel uncertain about helping while others are watching.
At certain level, both cases of Yue Yue and Genovese can be explained psychologically. These witness felt that the responsibilities of rescuing people was not theirs. However, you still can find differences between both cases. To help out Yue Yue, one doesn't need to risk his life. While to rescue Genovese, the witness may have high probability attacked by Moseley.
Sometimes, to save people in China is 'risky'. There were a lot of cases where those saviors got sued and became defendants in a court. One of the popular cases was the Peng Yu's case. On November 2006, Peng Yu saw an old lady fell down. Eventually, he went to help her up and brought her to hospital. The report came out the old lady have to undergo a surgery. Right after that, she wanted Peng Yu to afford the cost as she claimed that he is the one who pushed her down.
Later on, Peng Yu has been convicted by the judge. After knowing this, a witness who saw the whole incident where the old lady actually fell down herself said," Friends, from now on who will dare to do the righteous thing?"
Even the lady who helped Yue Yue has been described as 'someone who wanted to be famous' and she is also envied by some ridiculous people for she got money as her reward.
So tell me, where were their humanity gone?
(Some of the contents I translated from the column written by Zhi Jian Cheng（植建成 ) from 'Sin Chew Jit Poh' and some searched from wikipedia.)
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Chatterbox
I asked Nory (secretary of PMMU) about the program, and she said I can follow the previous batch, organise a SPSS workshop and invite lecturer to give a talk. I'm not sure whether to hold the same program or do something different.
Anyway, felt so happy that got to talk to Jyong again!
Talked bout her life, her 'unusual' relationships with others XD, her classes, timetable, housemates, family, trips, holidays, coming interview, cooking curry... etc.
Have a lot of fun talking non-stop after we didn't meet each other around.. a month? hahaa.. Glad to hear that she is always having fun there. Not to mention staying in a room by herself, with a king-sized bed and an attached bathroom! D=
Chit-chat for an hour and a half? Never mind, we have a good laugh.
P/s: Wei, don't miss out the Harry Potter Walking Tour in London!
Anyway, felt so happy that got to talk to Jyong again!
Talked bout her life, her 'unusual' relationships with others XD, her classes, timetable, housemates, family, trips, holidays, coming interview, cooking curry... etc.
Have a lot of fun talking non-stop after we didn't meet each other around.. a month? hahaa.. Glad to hear that she is always having fun there. Not to mention staying in a room by herself, with a king-sized bed and an attached bathroom! D=
Chit-chat for an hour and a half? Never mind, we have a good laugh.
P/s: Wei, don't miss out the Harry Potter Walking Tour in London!
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Brain, Rain and Storm
The 1st meeting between the new elected AJK PMMU (Persatuan Matematik Mahasiswa UPSI) was held in Bitarasiswa just now. I was chosen as 'Exco Akademik and Kerjaya' with a partner, Fakhri.
Then the president or the secretary said (was busy talking to a friend beside me)," Every exco have to plan a program in this PMMU 2011/2012 by themselves...."
*Right away turn to the whoever who is talking* What? An exco a program?
"...and every Exco please think about something about it and we will have meeting again by Tuesday. Three days should be enough for you all to...."
Oh my, I didn't know that. I can hear my brain cells working fast for a moment.
What kind of program? How many participants? What if I can't think of any? And how to discuss with Fakhri while I don't even know him yet? How about paper work?
I will always easily got nervous when people expected me to do something out especially when it is about dealing with a bunch of people.
Talking about these, though I have been friends with Jenn for years, I still feel very amazed that she can always handle all her works. The works I mean here included as a president of Rangers, a sport house's leader, a school magazine's editor, a club's president and a Head Prefect as well. Not to mention it was in her SPM year. (Maybe she's not muggle. XD)
Duh, I should complain nothing.
But... I need ideas now. *brainstorming*
Then the president or the secretary said (was busy talking to a friend beside me)," Every exco have to plan a program in this PMMU 2011/2012 by themselves...."
*Right away turn to the whoever who is talking* What? An exco a program?
"...and every Exco please think about something about it and we will have meeting again by Tuesday. Three days should be enough for you all to...."
Oh my, I didn't know that. I can hear my brain cells working fast for a moment.
What kind of program? How many participants? What if I can't think of any? And how to discuss with Fakhri while I don't even know him yet? How about paper work?
I will always easily got nervous when people expected me to do something out especially when it is about dealing with a bunch of people.
Talking about these, though I have been friends with Jenn for years, I still feel very amazed that she can always handle all her works. The works I mean here included as a president of Rangers, a sport house's leader, a school magazine's editor, a club's president and a Head Prefect as well. Not to mention it was in her SPM year. (Maybe she's not muggle. XD)
Duh, I should complain nothing.
But... I need ideas now. *brainstorming*
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
I'm Just a Muggle
Have a lot of things to be done. Actually.
List them down? Okay.
Numerical Methods.(the 3rd assign) - due on Thursday
3P 'pembelajaran kognitif'. - due on next week
Slide show on teaching and learning English as second language. - due on next week
A lot? Yet, I had done none of them.
Have been reading Harry Potter for these few days. Currently finishing Half Blood Prince. I don't remember during those days I can read them in such a speed. The plots are interesting? Certainly! Bury myself in Hogwarts, worry about nothing but the relationships between Ron and Hermione or Harry and Professor Snap etc.
Sometimes I guess this action of mine more or less reflects avoidance. Avoid of doing assignments. >.<
Hey come on, picking up and 'revise' about Deathly Hallows are much more interesting okay?
Anyway, better catch up my Numerical Methods now or... heh!
Perhaps I can grab some 'Fainting Fancy' or 'Fever Fudge' from Weasleys' Wizard Wheezes so to be excluded on hand in those assignments? :P
List them down? Okay.
Numerical Methods.(the 3rd assign) - due on Thursday
3P 'pembelajaran kognitif'. - due on next week
Slide show on teaching and learning English as second language. - due on next week
A lot? Yet, I had done none of them.
Have been reading Harry Potter for these few days. Currently finishing Half Blood Prince. I don't remember during those days I can read them in such a speed. The plots are interesting? Certainly! Bury myself in Hogwarts, worry about nothing but the relationships between Ron and Hermione or Harry and Professor Snap etc.
Sometimes I guess this action of mine more or less reflects avoidance. Avoid of doing assignments. >.<
Hey come on, picking up and 'revise' about Deathly Hallows are much more interesting okay?
Anyway, better catch up my Numerical Methods now or... heh!
Perhaps I can grab some 'Fainting Fancy' or 'Fever Fudge' from Weasleys' Wizard Wheezes so to be excluded on hand in those assignments? :P
Friday, October 7, 2011
Daniel Powter
A little bit busy for the past two days and guess this situation will only gradually increase in this upcoming time.
Day before yesterday, have to complete the Numerical Method's assignment (yup, again!). Have been cracked my head hard solving the two questions and it took me around 4hrs.
2.3464340934 5.84493480 0.434719475 4.9482394872................. Calculate all these number with these extra extra decimal points again and again makes me a bit 'pekchek'.
Supposingly there was a Multivariable Calculus quiz in the morning (ady prepared) and it has been postponed due to some reason.
Yesterday, went for a early dinner with Chyi and Wai after Taekwondo. Right after eating only I realized I didn't bring my purse. And so, Wai paid for me.
Right after that, Syong called me out with her and Jie. This time, I make sure myself to bring wallet. We went to a restaurant, have a drink. And guess what, my wallet has only plus minus RM2. Again, people have to pay for me.
Not to mention tomorrow morning I will have 3 hours class of Taekwondo which equal to 3 hours of tiredness. *Oh no! D=*
Day before yesterday, have to complete the Numerical Method's assignment (yup, again!). Have been cracked my head hard solving the two questions and it took me around 4hrs.
2.3464340934 5.84493480 0.434719475 4.9482394872................. Calculate all these number with these extra extra decimal points again and again makes me a bit 'pekchek'.
Supposingly there was a Multivariable Calculus quiz in the morning (ady prepared) and it has been postponed due to some reason.
Yesterday, went for a early dinner with Chyi and Wai after Taekwondo. Right after eating only I realized I didn't bring my purse. And so, Wai paid for me.
Right after that, Syong called me out with her and Jie. This time, I make sure myself to bring wallet. We went to a restaurant, have a drink. And guess what, my wallet has only plus minus RM2. Again, people have to pay for me.
Not to mention tomorrow morning I will have 3 hours class of Taekwondo which equal to 3 hours of tiredness. *Oh no! D=*
Monday, October 3, 2011
Warmth at 0233
While I woke up at 4am dis morning n i checked. "Eh, a new msg? who the hell will send me msg in the middle of night?"
OH.... IS JYONG! All the way from UK. *touched* I then read the msg she sent me n she is mentioning about missing siang malam. Lol.
Eh, siaopo? How are you there? All of us are missing you already. heheee...
Out of sudden, I am always glad I have this bunch of friends (no other people like them in this world) that are worth to be friend for life. Sit beside and listen to me, I can tell you why.
Every best friends of mine has their own special characteristics and personalities. I always wanted to blog out something about them. I mean every single one of them. This thought has been lingered in my head quite sometime ago. But I always don't have the courage to do that as I found it is rather tough for me to write out my thoughts in words (in accurate words). Anyway, I will try.
Love them always.
OH.... IS JYONG! All the way from UK. *touched* I then read the msg she sent me n she is mentioning about missing siang malam. Lol.
Eh, siaopo? How are you there? All of us are missing you already. heheee...
Out of sudden, I am always glad I have this bunch of friends (no other people like them in this world) that are worth to be friend for life. Sit beside and listen to me, I can tell you why.
Every best friends of mine has their own special characteristics and personalities. I always wanted to blog out something about them. I mean every single one of them. This thought has been lingered in my head quite sometime ago. But I always don't have the courage to do that as I found it is rather tough for me to write out my thoughts in words (in accurate words). Anyway, I will try.
Love them always.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Things been Said
Phew! At last this morning I'm done with my Numerical Method's 1st assignment. But, urgh... our lecturer gave a 2nd one today. >.<
What's the difference between AT14 and AT48? People been asking me. I always answer, AT48 like mine don't have minor subjects, only electives and we have industrial training besides practical. That's all. Aside of these, most of these two courses' subjects included are almost the same indeed some of us are in the same class too. But due to some problems happened before, some might think that people in my course tend to be 'more clever' and always being rude. I felt that's not true! There are always various type of people in a course. Different people with different attitude. I felt it's a bit unfair towards us when these things have been said. But, we listen, we respect and we learn. =)
What's the difference between AT14 and AT48? People been asking me. I always answer, AT48 like mine don't have minor subjects, only electives and we have industrial training besides practical. That's all. Aside of these, most of these two courses' subjects included are almost the same indeed some of us are in the same class too. But due to some problems happened before, some might think that people in my course tend to be 'more clever' and always being rude. I felt that's not true! There are always various type of people in a course. Different people with different attitude. I felt it's a bit unfair towards us when these things have been said. But, we listen, we respect and we learn. =)
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Satisfying Meal
Having great lunch and dinner today cause got to eat home cook food! Thanks to Chyi for helping a lot. Baked beans with eggs, fried mushroom and 'bakchoi' with soy sauce are in the menu today. =D
I think I should start to ask for my mum's recipes. She is a good cook! hahaa...
Have to hand in Numerical Methods assignment by this Thursday. However, I cant solve some of the questions! Urgh... Hope my brain works better tomorrow morning so I can hand in my assignment in time.
Should I go back to Taiping this Friday night? Still considering... >.<
I think I should start to ask for my mum's recipes. She is a good cook! hahaa...
Have to hand in Numerical Methods assignment by this Thursday. However, I cant solve some of the questions! Urgh... Hope my brain works better tomorrow morning so I can hand in my assignment in time.
Should I go back to Taiping this Friday night? Still considering... >.<
Monday, September 26, 2011
Headache
Being picked in the EC class today for an impromptu speech on 'Human Interest'. *Sigh* I would said that I did it badly. I only remembered I keep on talking and talking while the truth is my brain is malfunction on the spot. It ended up with a speech with empty point. Well, blame no one. I'm the one who is lack of preparation. And heh. I always talk too fast, this problem has been always pointed out by my friends, teachers and lecturers, but I haven't get over it YET. Duh.
Yesterday, I went to Jenn's place and she showed me some interesting talk show ---"The Ellen Degeneres Show". One of my favourite host of all time! She is so brilliant in cracking out all those jokes and celebrities that have been invited to her show always have a good laugh together every single time. However, some how I was upset that I often can't listen to their British accent clearly and have to keep on ask Jenn to pause the video and explain them for me. Thanks for your patience, Jenn.
Hmm... I really have to improve myself in speaking and listening in English Language. Read more!
Psst... luckily I have a personal English tutor in my room. XD
Yesterday, I went to Jenn's place and she showed me some interesting talk show ---"The Ellen Degeneres Show". One of my favourite host of all time! She is so brilliant in cracking out all those jokes and celebrities that have been invited to her show always have a good laugh together every single time. However, some how I was upset that I often can't listen to their British accent clearly and have to keep on ask Jenn to pause the video and explain them for me. Thanks for your patience, Jenn.
Hmm... I really have to improve myself in speaking and listening in English Language. Read more!
Psst... luckily I have a personal English tutor in my room. XD
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Argh~ George Lee~
Something not-so-nice has been 'unintentionally' said by a group of taekwondo-ers to Chyi yesterday. "So action la.." bla bla bla... Seeing her being so upset, I couldn't do much but to ask her to ignore their words.
Some people go around and say, gossip, judge and comment about others where sometimes the truth is they don't even know them. Well, even you know them, do you understand them? Think before you going to say something and the consequences that may come after that.
Today, right after my class I went to KL to meet my friend, Jenn. We have our teatime in Oldtown for around two hours while waiting to meet another friend of mine, Yan. Getting chat to Jenn will never be bored. Listen to her stuffs and stories, telling her my own incidents, discuss bout other issues.. Either way, it is always comfortable to talk to her.
In the evening, we then met with Yan (a very very cute friend) and have dinner in Petaling Street! Wee~~
Went to Popular after that, instead of helping Chyi to search for her story book (sorry, out of stock), AT LAST I found George Lee's books ----"Make Each Day Count" and "Hospital, My Utopia"! =D
Cant wait to start reading now~ So, goodnight people!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Relax 'je'...
Woohoo~ today is a Tuesday! Which means no classes for me! As usual, went for lunch with my friend and at last today I have done reading my story book --- "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban". I know I know, this series has been published quite sometime ago, but i never fail to get attracted by the story lines, the spells, the magics and the personalities of the characters inside! Hahaaa...
In the evening, went to campus to walk around with Chyi, my roomate and wanted to find Mr. Ghani, Taekwondo instructor for the schedule. Shame on us, we have accidentally mistaken Mr. Suppiah (one of the 3P's lecturer) as him! Luckily he wasn't bothered by that.
Dinner time, my senior, Yong and her housemate, Jie came and have a dinner with us in Blue Garden. This is the 1st time I heard bout this restaurant since the first day I came. I ordered their signature drink and it was in blue! The colour was nicely mixed. It has some lemon and peppermint smell. Like it at first, but when it is too much I feel like Im drinking Listerine. =.= Anyway, the food there is nice!
In the evening, went to campus to walk around with Chyi, my roomate and wanted to find Mr. Ghani, Taekwondo instructor for the schedule. Shame on us, we have accidentally mistaken Mr. Suppiah (one of the 3P's lecturer) as him! Luckily he wasn't bothered by that.
Dinner time, my senior, Yong and her housemate, Jie came and have a dinner with us in Blue Garden. This is the 1st time I heard bout this restaurant since the first day I came. I ordered their signature drink and it was in blue! The colour was nicely mixed. It has some lemon and peppermint smell. Like it at first, but when it is too much I feel like Im drinking Listerine. =.= Anyway, the food there is nice!
Monday, September 19, 2011
What to blog about?
A blog? Yes, I didn't get my lecturer wrong, we have been asked to create a blog for ourselves! Well well, I wouldn't deny that it would be quite interesting for all of us as we get to type down all our emotions and feelings AND also to get to check on others too! *evil grin*
Hmm... before this, let me explain myself. You may wonder what is it mean by 'Taiping Lang'. 'Lang' simply means 'people' in Hokkien dialect. So, yup! I came from the famous raintown in Malaysia! teehehe... but, talking bout hometown now, I miss all those mouth-watering food like asam laksa, popiah, curry mee, chicken rice and cendol. Hmm.. yummy yummy!
I guess that's all for my first post in www.189kmawayfrommyraintown.blogspot. teehee.. I will update more in this upcoming time. See you soon.
Hmm... before this, let me explain myself. You may wonder what is it mean by 'Taiping Lang'. 'Lang' simply means 'people' in Hokkien dialect. So, yup! I came from the famous raintown in Malaysia! teehehe... but, talking bout hometown now, I miss all those mouth-watering food like asam laksa, popiah, curry mee, chicken rice and cendol. Hmm.. yummy yummy!
I guess that's all for my first post in www.189kmawayfrommyraintown.blogspot. teehee.. I will update more in this upcoming time. See you soon.
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