Fish Bone

Standard 3, year 2000.
The night before we are going down to Sunway Lagoon with my family, I was so excited. While having my dinner, a tiny fish bone had stuck in my throat. I tell you, that is painful. Then, some uncle or aunt suggested me to take a full mouth of rice. (The theory is that the force of swallowing will push down the fish bone.)

Instead of swallowing the lump of rice, I chew it. So obviously, this method doesn't work for me. To be fair, it is simply difficult to ask a nine year girl to do that ok? hahaaa..
Anyway, at last my uncle helped me by using some tools to pick it out from my throat. I was so relieved, I thought it will stick with me forever.

Anyhow, after the incident, I told myself not to eat fish anymore. I don't want to experience that kind of pain again. It scares me. What if it went into the throat too deep and flow within my blood? Eew... (That's how I think during that time XD)

Well, I really didn't eat much fish in the few years after that. Except there were times when my uncle or aunt who insisted to pick some fish into my plate of rice during family dinner. I told them I don't want and eventually they will give me that kind of 'adult look' that will shut my mouth immediately. Then I will take up minutes to use fork and spoon to squeeze and squeeze and squeeze the fish flesh until I confirmed that there is no more fish bone inside, even a little tiny one. That's is how traumatic I got towards fish bone when I'm young.

And now? Of course the trauma has gone. Fish is always one of my favourite food.



Recalled back those past memories, there were times when I'm so sure of myself by telling,
"No, I wouldn't like this..."
"Certainly I'm not this kind of person..."
"Of course I won't do this even in the future..."
"Nah, this won't happen on me..."

But you can't so sure of something until it really happens and it goes totally the other way round.
At times, when these things or feelings change gradually, you don't even realize it.
And by the time you realized, you knew those feelings have already grown too strong.